Well, my brother and SIL have been going to appointments and playing a waiting game in between them for the last couple of weeks. I can't even write the whole story since it is making me cry. The doctor found a heart problem in the baby. They don't know why or where this problem comes from but it happens in about 1/100 pregnancies. The baby would have to have 2 surgeries within the first six months and then another one and the survival rates are not high at all. They are doing abortion tomorrow. I am hoping for a fast recovery for her! And after 2-3 cycles they can start TTC again. They got KU on their first try, so hopefully it'll happen again really soon.
We went together to a synagogue on Saturday and spent a lot of time with them during the last week.
I felt horrible, sad, depressed, and low. I started thinking that I wasn't always nice towards her. It was hard for me at times to see her since we were trying for a while and it happened so fast for them. Sometimes, I didn't want to come over for diner to my parent's house, knowing that they would be there and everyone would just talk being KU and I just wanted to get as far away from those conversations as possible. But I never, ever, ever wished anything bad for her. She is family. Plus, I don't think anyone can wish for someone to go through what they are going.
I am thinking of them everyday. They know the whole family is there to support them during this time. I am wishing and hoping for their fast recovery!!!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
Telling/Hearing the news
We decided to tell my parents a bit earlier then we originally planned. I know my Mom is worried since she knows that we were TTC and didn't have any luck for some time. So, to calm her down we decided to spill!
Yesterday, we went over to my parent's house. We took our first picture from the u/s with us. When we all sat down at the table, I told my parents that we got a new picture that they haven't seen yet. They started asking questions like where did you get it, who gave it to you, how come we haven't seen it before. I handed them the picture and they stared at it for a minute. My Mom asked "whose baby is that?" and she took out the picture from the photo pouch and looked at the patient's name (smart woman, I wouldn't even think of that!). They started laughing and congratulated us. Then we spent the rest of the evening talking about how my brother and I got married in the same year and now will have babies in the same year as well (positive attitude).
My brother and SIL went to find out the sex of their baby. He called me up during lunch hour and told me that I am going to have a nephew. Ohhh, a little boy for them. We already have one nephew from Mr.V's side and now my bro is having one also. He sounded very excited. He wanted a boy since the day they found out that SIL was KU.
Yesterday, we went over to my parent's house. We took our first picture from the u/s with us. When we all sat down at the table, I told my parents that we got a new picture that they haven't seen yet. They started asking questions like where did you get it, who gave it to you, how come we haven't seen it before. I handed them the picture and they stared at it for a minute. My Mom asked "whose baby is that?" and she took out the picture from the photo pouch and looked at the patient's name (smart woman, I wouldn't even think of that!). They started laughing and congratulated us. Then we spent the rest of the evening talking about how my brother and I got married in the same year and now will have babies in the same year as well (positive attitude).
My brother and SIL went to find out the sex of their baby. He called me up during lunch hour and told me that I am going to have a nephew. Ohhh, a little boy for them. We already have one nephew from Mr.V's side and now my bro is having one also. He sounded very excited. He wanted a boy since the day they found out that SIL was KU.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
How much can I eat?
I feel like I've been stuffing my face for the last couple of days. Today I had
Afternoon - banana, bagel, strawberries, crackers
Lunch - mashed potatoes and chicken, apple
Dinner - rice, salmon, and vegetables
Late Snack - bread and cheese at my parent's house
And I just finished eating a second banana, since I don't have any other food with me. I feel like I am starving every couple of hours and if I don't eat, I feel nauseous.
On a different note, I had m/s today again in the morning and it was again when I was brushing my teeth. I felt nauseous for couple of hours but my bagel definitely made me feel better. I realized that I need to eat bread (crackers just don't do it) in order to feel better. I should probably find another food that helps with nausea. If you have any suggestions, please let me know!
Afternoon - banana, bagel, strawberries, crackers
Lunch - mashed potatoes and chicken, apple
Dinner - rice, salmon, and vegetables
Late Snack - bread and cheese at my parent's house
And I just finished eating a second banana, since I don't have any other food with me. I feel like I am starving every couple of hours and if I don't eat, I feel nauseous.
On a different note, I had m/s today again in the morning and it was again when I was brushing my teeth. I felt nauseous for couple of hours but my bagel definitely made me feel better. I realized that I need to eat bread (crackers just don't do it) in order to feel better. I should probably find another food that helps with nausea. If you have any suggestions, please let me know!
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Updates
I've been pretty busy at work and too tired in the evenings to update my blog.
So, here are my updates for the last week:
I saw my new doctor last week, filled a lot of paperwork, and left with my head exploding from the amount of information. When she finished talking, I just had to ask "so what do I do first?" Here is the order: u/s to measure the baby, bloodwork, meet with the doctor again after 4-5 weeks, and I also already got an order for first trimester screening.
Today, I went to get my first u/s done. I came in early and was finishing my second bottle of water as they asked. The technician couldn't see anything at first, so I had to empty my bladder and she tried again. I could finally see a little bean on the screen but I couldn't hear the hearbeat. She told me I was measuring 5w5d. I asked couple of times if it is possible to hear for me to hear the h/b, but she already turned off the machine. She asked me if I saw the white wave line at the bottom of the machine and I said yes. But at that point I wasn't even sure what I was looking at. Apparently, that was the h/b. Thanks for letting me know!!! My doctor called me within an hour and told me that I was measuring right on track with my FF chart, which is 6w1d.
Also today, I had my first "m/s". I woke up during the night and I felt nausious, but I was able to fall asleep. In the morning though, when I was brushing my teeth I knew it was coming and ta da. I definitely felt a lot better for the next couple of hours until the next wave of nausea hit me. That is how I spent my morning and afternoon at work. Fun times! But it is all worth it at the end!
So, here are my updates for the last week:
I saw my new doctor last week, filled a lot of paperwork, and left with my head exploding from the amount of information. When she finished talking, I just had to ask "so what do I do first?" Here is the order: u/s to measure the baby, bloodwork, meet with the doctor again after 4-5 weeks, and I also already got an order for first trimester screening.
Today, I went to get my first u/s done. I came in early and was finishing my second bottle of water as they asked. The technician couldn't see anything at first, so I had to empty my bladder and she tried again. I could finally see a little bean on the screen but I couldn't hear the hearbeat. She told me I was measuring 5w5d. I asked couple of times if it is possible to hear for me to hear the h/b, but she already turned off the machine. She asked me if I saw the white wave line at the bottom of the machine and I said yes. But at that point I wasn't even sure what I was looking at. Apparently, that was the h/b. Thanks for letting me know!!! My doctor called me within an hour and told me that I was measuring right on track with my FF chart, which is 6w1d.
Also today, I had my first "m/s". I woke up during the night and I felt nausious, but I was able to fall asleep. In the morning though, when I was brushing my teeth I knew it was coming and ta da. I definitely felt a lot better for the next couple of hours until the next wave of nausea hit me. That is how I spent my morning and afternoon at work. Fun times! But it is all worth it at the end!
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
One more thing!
I was looking through the papers on my desk today and found one sesame seed from the bagel that I ate couple of days ago (gross, I know, but I thought I cleaned everything). But now I can't through it away, because 3DPregnancy said that this is what our little one looks like right now. Am I being silly? Probably not! I just hope I won't be collecting sesame seeds this week.
It has been days...
Since I last wrote in my blog. Here are all of the updates:
1. Today I got an email from 3DPregnancy.com that we are at 5 weeks. There are a lot of developments that are happening at this time. I will post all of them this week.
2. My first appointment is coming up this week. I'll probably be just filling out paperwork and going over my insurance.
3. I have been feeling more tired towards the evening. I usually feel sleepy around 9 o'clock. But this feeling only started couple of days ago.
4. I am not as hungry this week as I was last week. I mean, I had to have some food every two hours last week and now I feel like I am back to my regular eating habits.
5. I last count on how many tests I peed. It is still an addiction. I am running out of my $ tests, so hopefully I'll stop soon :)
6. I started reading "What to Expect When You Are Expecting". I only read one chapter, but it seems like a really useful book.
7. I am not as crampy as I was last week. I still get some cramps throughout the day, but nothing comparing to last week.
8. I am trying to stay positive, but sometimes those negative thoughts are crawling into my mind. I've been spending less time on GP and 1st Trimester since last week, because for some reason I only paid attention to the bad news and it stressed me out. I need to tell myself everyday that everything will be fine and that I just need to stay positive!!!
1. Today I got an email from 3DPregnancy.com that we are at 5 weeks. There are a lot of developments that are happening at this time. I will post all of them this week.
2. My first appointment is coming up this week. I'll probably be just filling out paperwork and going over my insurance.
3. I have been feeling more tired towards the evening. I usually feel sleepy around 9 o'clock. But this feeling only started couple of days ago.
4. I am not as hungry this week as I was last week. I mean, I had to have some food every two hours last week and now I feel like I am back to my regular eating habits.
5. I last count on how many tests I peed. It is still an addiction. I am running out of my $ tests, so hopefully I'll stop soon :)
6. I started reading "What to Expect When You Are Expecting". I only read one chapter, but it seems like a really useful book.
7. I am not as crampy as I was last week. I still get some cramps throughout the day, but nothing comparing to last week.
8. I am trying to stay positive, but sometimes those negative thoughts are crawling into my mind. I've been spending less time on GP and 1st Trimester since last week, because for some reason I only paid attention to the bad news and it stressed me out. I need to tell myself everyday that everything will be fine and that I just need to stay positive!!!
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Details
As promised, I am going to write all of the juicy details. This is going to be long.
It all started on Monday morning. I decided to test at 12DPO, so I did my deed and went to take a shower, leaving the $ test on the faucet. I was praying that I would see at least a faint line on the test. I kept opening the shower door and peeking at the test and finally I saw something. That something was a very, very faint line on the test. At that point, I just wanted to finish taking a shower and to look at the test from all of the angles, just to make sure I wasn't imagining it.
I wasn't convinced by the first faint line, so at lunch time I went to Walgreens
and got two more tests. I peed on both of them (why pee on just one when I got two!). As I was walking back, I kept checking the test in my brown bag. Couple of minutes later, the word PREGNANT popped up on the screen on one of the test and a faint line showed up on another. I was over the moon. I coudln't scream or dance since I was on the street. I didn't want to tell DH over the phone, so I decided to wait till he gets home and surprise him.The rest of the workday, I was peeking at the tests in my brown bag just to see again that wonderful and beautiful word.
I never thought I am going to tell DH, but a thought popped up in my head. When DH proposed to me, he was wearing a T-shirt that said "Will you marry me?" He handed me a Sharpie to circle Yes or No. So, I thought we could keep the tradition going with our surprises. I stopped at Target after work and got a set of babysuits and in the same mall I got them personalized. The onesie said "Will you be my Daddy?".
I prepared a gift bag and left it in the living room. Here is what was inside the bag:)
I felt like those hours that I was waiting for DH were the longest hours ever. He finally got home and I said I had a little gift for him to cheer him up. He opened it and was speechless for a minute and then he looked at me and smiled. We both had tears in our eyes. It definitely didn't sink in yet. But we are cautiously excited. ~Stick baby stick~
It all started on Monday morning. I decided to test at 12DPO, so I did my deed and went to take a shower, leaving the $ test on the faucet. I was praying that I would see at least a faint line on the test. I kept opening the shower door and peeking at the test and finally I saw something. That something was a very, very faint line on the test. At that point, I just wanted to finish taking a shower and to look at the test from all of the angles, just to make sure I wasn't imagining it.
I wasn't convinced by the first faint line, so at lunch time I went to Walgreens
and got two more tests. I peed on both of them (why pee on just one when I got two!). As I was walking back, I kept checking the test in my brown bag. Couple of minutes later, the word PREGNANT popped up on the screen on one of the test and a faint line showed up on another. I was over the moon. I coudln't scream or dance since I was on the street. I didn't want to tell DH over the phone, so I decided to wait till he gets home and surprise him.The rest of the workday, I was peeking at the tests in my brown bag just to see again that wonderful and beautiful word.
I never thought I am going to tell DH, but a thought popped up in my head. When DH proposed to me, he was wearing a T-shirt that said "Will you marry me?" He handed me a Sharpie to circle Yes or No. So, I thought we could keep the tradition going with our surprises. I stopped at Target after work and got a set of babysuits and in the same mall I got them personalized. The onesie said "Will you be my Daddy?".
I prepared a gift bag and left it in the living room. Here is what was inside the bag:)
I felt like those hours that I was waiting for DH were the longest hours ever. He finally got home and I said I had a little gift for him to cheer him up. He opened it and was speechless for a minute and then he looked at me and smiled. We both had tears in our eyes. It definitely didn't sink in yet. But we are cautiously excited. ~Stick baby stick~
Miracle!!!
We got our BFP on Monday! I was shocked, apparently for couple of days, since I didn't update my blog with our BIG news. It still didn't sink in yet. For now, I am hoping and praying that our little one will be a sticky baby. We are cautiously excited. I'll update my blog later today with the pics of how I told DH and his reaction :) It was priceless!!!
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