I've been feeling a little down lately. I am not sure why and can't figure out the reason(s).
What may cause it?
1. We go through the same thing everyday. I mean routine is great but maybe we need to be spontaneous once in a while. After Miss A goes to bed and I clean the kitchen, the husband and I usually place our behinds on the couch and watch TV. Sometimes, that is all I want to do - have some tea and enjoy Modern Family or a good movie. But (there is always a but) I feel like we are just couch potatoes who just stare at the black box until I go to bed.
2. I feel like there is something missing right now from our relationship. The husband comes home late, we have diner, miss A goes to bed, and then see #1. We don't talk as much, sometimes it is hard to find topics to talk about during dinner. I feel like he is not very talkative lately. We hardly have time and almost always exhausted for sexy time. Is that why I don't feel like we are close anymore??? A lot of my girlfriends swear that sexy time spices things up. I totally agree, but (here we go again, but....) I try to "seduce" him occasionally when I am in a mood but he continues to stare at the stupid TV. Lately, I feel like he doesn't find me attractive anymore, not interested in having a conversation, not wanting to be in my company. I even asked him if he found someone... Yes, that is how paranoid I get. Maybe I am just hormonal...
3. I love spending time with Miss A. Since the weather has been great for the last couple of weeks, I take her to the playground after work. We spend 1-1.5 hours there and then head home and make dinner and play. I tell her everyday how much I love her. I kiss her everytime I get an opportunity and when she lets me. I hugg her and carry her around the house even though my hands started hurting. The husband is also truly, madly in love with our little girl. Why can't we be as affectione with each other as we are with miss A? Maybe we put all our feelings toward her and have little or nothing left to give each other at the end of the day.
Now you can see how I feel. I wonder if I am the only one feeling like this. I don't have that many friends who have kids so I can't really talk to them. I just hope this phase will pass.
