Confessions

So, I just had a little reality check. I named my blog Confessions of Mrs.V but I never confess anything. So here it goes:

1. I am tired. I returned to work 3.5 months ago and I don't know how longer I can keep up with my schedule.
2. #1 leads me to this. I need a vacation. But if we go somewhere with Miss A. then it wouldn't be really a vacation. And I would probably get even more tired by organizing, planning, packing, and unpacking. Plus, going on a vacation with the breastpump, bottles and drying rack.....I don't think so!
3. Sometimes I feel like a single parent. Mr. V comes home, eats diner, and sits on the couch, while I have to take care of Miss A, wash bottles for next day, prepare lunches and so on. Don't I get a break too? I wish I could come home and just chill on the couch. Why don't I have that option?
4. I don't like my body. I know it could be worse but I really want my skinny, flat stomach, cute arse body back. I've lost almost all of the pregnancy wait, still have about 5 pounds (maybe less since breastmilk also counts as addition to my pounds). But, and this is a big but, my body doesn't nearly look the same. My stomach is all jingly and even if I can fit into my old pants/jeans, I have a freaking muffin top that doesn't let me wear any of my tops.
5. I'd like to work part time. I wish I could spend more time with Miss A. and enjoy this stage in our life. And in reality I probably could. I think we would make it financially, but I wouldn't be able to do my job part time and I can't work from home. Right now is not even a right time to look for another job that could meet my needs and wants. So, I am stuck. There are days when I catch myself thinking "I'll just pack my stuff, turn off the computer and wave buh-bye to my boss".
6. I need more time for myself. I am still a girl after all who wants to get her hair and nails done on a regular basis. But every time I try to do somehting for myself I feel guilty. I feel like I am a bad mother who'd rather go to a salon on the weekend then spend time with my baby girl.
7. I need more sleep! Lately, I've been sleeping about 4-5.5 hours at night with interruptions. I've become forgetful and unfocused.

That is it for now. I am sure I'll think of more stuff.

What's for Diner?

Miss A has been trying new things every few days for the past 2 weeks. She hasn't tried that many veggies/fruits but I already can say that she is just like me. When I was little my parents struggled with feeding times. As for Miss A, here is what she tried and her reaction:
1. Rice cereal - tried for the first time at 5.5 months (May 1). She loved the idea of eating out of a spoon, but she wasn't fond of a cereal. We tried with a few spoons thinking she just has to get used to it. The next few weeks up until now, she eats about 5 baby spoons and then starts turning her head whenever she sees me bringing the spoon to her mouth. Oh, and she also locks her lips, so nothing will get into her mouth. I laugh everytime she does it!
2. Apple - again tried a little bit and is not a big fan.
3. Bread - now she doesn't really it but we give her the hard part and munches on it and I think it is helping her with teathing. She loves bread!!! If she sees me taking out the bread, she starts making sounds and shaking a little bit, and also tries to reach it.
4. Avocado - tried a few days ago and didn't really like it.
5. Sweet potato - my Mom cooked her the sweet potato on Sunday. Again, tried few spoons and would lock her mouth.

She gets excited when she sees her bottle. But I keep telling her that she can't be eating breastmilk/formula until retirement. We'll keep on trying with new veggies/fruits, hopefully we'll find something she'll like.

Say What?

My baby girl and I spend last Saturday together. Mr. V had to take care of the condo and visit his parents/brother. We played, sang, did tummy time, read stories and ate before we got out of the house. As Miss A was consuming her "delicious" rice cereal (more of the cereal ends up on her face rather then in her mouth)she said "Ma". I didn't believe my ears but my initial reaction was to answer "Yes, baby". Haha... You would think that my reaction would be "OMG, she just said Ma!". But no, it took me a few minutes and then I was clapping and hugging Miss A for saying Ma. Even though nobody else was home to hear her say it, I was and still am convinced that she didn't just babble it but really, truly meant it!
Thank you baby girl for a wonderful Saturday!