Daycare

Well, we've officially started daycare on Tuesday (09/06/11). We took miss A to daycare a few times before the official start date to meet the kids and get comfortable there.

I am freaking out! My heart hurts every morning V calls me after he drops our daughter off. I am sure he is sugar coating the details, so it only makes me feel worse. For the first two days, she started crying when they parked the car. She didn't want to go in and wanted daddy to hold her. She was waving her finger to the teacher and saying "no, no, no', like you can't take me aways from daddy since he is holding me. Today he called me and said thing went a bit better. She got out of the car, walked to the door by herself, but wanted daddy to hold her when he rang the bell. She wasn't really crying, just a bit moody, I guess. Man, when does it get easier? And I am not even the one dropping her off (which I have to say I am very thankful).

Yesterday, I picked her up from school. I can't even describe what I was feeling while driving. Anticipation, joy, butterflies in my stomach. I wanted to hug her and kiss her. I wanted to know she was OK and taken care of. I wanted to know she was happy at the place we chose for her.

It is hard right now to accept that my little girl is becoming more independent. It is hard to accept that her teachers get to spend more hours of the day with her. They get to see her laugh, learn new things, watch her eyes go wide when she accomplished a new task All. By. Herself., interact with other kids, and just be her charming self. I didn't feel that way when my mom used to watch her. My mom would tell me the little details of their day like what they did, learned, funny things miss A said and so on. I would picture those details in my head and it was almost like I was with miss A all day :) Now it is all different. I am thankful she got to spend 21.5 months at home with grandma. I realize that now is a good time for her to be around kids, since she was becoming bored at home. But I can't help myself but feel just a bit sad... And here we go, I am getting teary yet again.