I guess I can't...I was trying to post at least once a week but it is still not happening. I have some great topics that I wanted to write about but once I am signed on to Blogger I forget all about them.
This week has been a little tough. I am so glad it is Friday. Miss A got sick on Tuesday and the next few nights were just brutal. Her nose was stuffed and since she still likes to sleep with her paci, she couldn't breath with her mouth. She woke up probably like 89 times during the next two nights. She wanted me to rock her to sleep (totally remember the newborn stage, but back then she was about 8lbs and not 24lbs). After a few minutes of rocker her, my hands would get tired so I would try to sit on a bed and still hold her. She would squeal until I got up and walked around the room with her in my arms.
The husband is also having some issues lately. His hands has been hurting him for a while to the point that he can't sleep at night or wakes up during the night and can't feel them. He's been seeing a doc through worker's comp for a few months. Now that that treatment is over, we are looking into new treatments for him. I've been encouraging him to see a chiropractor, physical therapist, and/or acupuncturist. Basically, I would want him to try everything possible before settling on the collagen shot or worse, doing a surgery. It is been tough on him and has been occupying his mind a lot too. This too shall pass...
Other then that, summer is looking like it is going to be filled with lots of birthdays. We've already replied "Yes" to 4 bday parties in the next few weeks. Hopefully, it'll help us forget about the everyday worries and help us enjoy the time with family and friends.
Friday, June 17, 2011
Monday, May 9, 2011
Mother's Day
I have been giving the best title in the world. No, it is not a manager, VP, CEO, or even royal highness (take that Kate M). I am a Mother and I consider it to be the best accomplishment and title in my life.
I gave her life - she taught me a whole new meaning to life
I give her my love - she taught me the love I never knew existed
I teach her new skills - she teaches me to have patience and understanding
I give her new toys - she reminds me to look at things from a new perspective
(and I love to watch her eyes sparkle when she sees new toys and can't wait for me to open them)
I take her to playgrounds, park - she let's me be a kid for those hours
I kiss and hug her - she kisses and hugs me back
I read her books - she reminds me to live in the moment and enjoy our precious time together
For all those reasons above and for many more, I feel truly honored to be called a Mother. I have the best present ever and that is my little, adorable Miss A :).
P.S. Thanks to the husband of course for helping me create this beautiful person. In this case, I honestly couldn't do it without his help :)
I gave her life - she taught me a whole new meaning to life
I give her my love - she taught me the love I never knew existed
I teach her new skills - she teaches me to have patience and understanding
I give her new toys - she reminds me to look at things from a new perspective
(and I love to watch her eyes sparkle when she sees new toys and can't wait for me to open them)
I take her to playgrounds, park - she let's me be a kid for those hours
I kiss and hug her - she kisses and hugs me back
I read her books - she reminds me to live in the moment and enjoy our precious time together
For all those reasons above and for many more, I feel truly honored to be called a Mother. I have the best present ever and that is my little, adorable Miss A :).
P.S. Thanks to the husband of course for helping me create this beautiful person. In this case, I honestly couldn't do it without his help :)
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Up and Down
I've been feeling a little down lately. I am not sure why and can't figure out the reason(s).
What may cause it?
1. We go through the same thing everyday. I mean routine is great but maybe we need to be spontaneous once in a while. After Miss A goes to bed and I clean the kitchen, the husband and I usually place our behinds on the couch and watch TV. Sometimes, that is all I want to do - have some tea and enjoy Modern Family or a good movie. But (there is always a but) I feel like we are just couch potatoes who just stare at the black box until I go to bed.
2. I feel like there is something missing right now from our relationship. The husband comes home late, we have diner, miss A goes to bed, and then see #1. We don't talk as much, sometimes it is hard to find topics to talk about during dinner. I feel like he is not very talkative lately. We hardly have time and almost always exhausted for sexy time. Is that why I don't feel like we are close anymore??? A lot of my girlfriends swear that sexy time spices things up. I totally agree, but (here we go again, but....) I try to "seduce" him occasionally when I am in a mood but he continues to stare at the stupid TV. Lately, I feel like he doesn't find me attractive anymore, not interested in having a conversation, not wanting to be in my company. I even asked him if he found someone... Yes, that is how paranoid I get. Maybe I am just hormonal...
3. I love spending time with Miss A. Since the weather has been great for the last couple of weeks, I take her to the playground after work. We spend 1-1.5 hours there and then head home and make dinner and play. I tell her everyday how much I love her. I kiss her everytime I get an opportunity and when she lets me. I hugg her and carry her around the house even though my hands started hurting. The husband is also truly, madly in love with our little girl. Why can't we be as affectione with each other as we are with miss A? Maybe we put all our feelings toward her and have little or nothing left to give each other at the end of the day.
Now you can see how I feel. I wonder if I am the only one feeling like this. I don't have that many friends who have kids so I can't really talk to them. I just hope this phase will pass.
What may cause it?
1. We go through the same thing everyday. I mean routine is great but maybe we need to be spontaneous once in a while. After Miss A goes to bed and I clean the kitchen, the husband and I usually place our behinds on the couch and watch TV. Sometimes, that is all I want to do - have some tea and enjoy Modern Family or a good movie. But (there is always a but) I feel like we are just couch potatoes who just stare at the black box until I go to bed.
2. I feel like there is something missing right now from our relationship. The husband comes home late, we have diner, miss A goes to bed, and then see #1. We don't talk as much, sometimes it is hard to find topics to talk about during dinner. I feel like he is not very talkative lately. We hardly have time and almost always exhausted for sexy time. Is that why I don't feel like we are close anymore??? A lot of my girlfriends swear that sexy time spices things up. I totally agree, but (here we go again, but....) I try to "seduce" him occasionally when I am in a mood but he continues to stare at the stupid TV. Lately, I feel like he doesn't find me attractive anymore, not interested in having a conversation, not wanting to be in my company. I even asked him if he found someone... Yes, that is how paranoid I get. Maybe I am just hormonal...
3. I love spending time with Miss A. Since the weather has been great for the last couple of weeks, I take her to the playground after work. We spend 1-1.5 hours there and then head home and make dinner and play. I tell her everyday how much I love her. I kiss her everytime I get an opportunity and when she lets me. I hugg her and carry her around the house even though my hands started hurting. The husband is also truly, madly in love with our little girl. Why can't we be as affectione with each other as we are with miss A? Maybe we put all our feelings toward her and have little or nothing left to give each other at the end of the day.
Now you can see how I feel. I wonder if I am the only one feeling like this. I don't have that many friends who have kids so I can't really talk to them. I just hope this phase will pass.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Balancing Everything in Life
How do you do it? How do mothers everyday juggle work, kids, husband, house work and not having a meltdown every now and then. I wish I can find answers to this question.
I go through stages. Few weeks I am fine and think of myself as a super woman for going to work early, getting groceries, making diner while trying to entertain a very active toddler who just needs to see what mama is cooking otherwise she'll through a tantrum, feeding the active toddler diner, feeding the husband diner, play/chase the toddler, change the toddler into pjs, brush teeth (in our case one tooth), wash bottles, pack lunches for the next day, sometimes do laundry, pick up toys around the house, and finally sit down on the couch with a cup of tea. ***Such a run on sentence, but whatever***
After a few weeks of thinking I can handle it all, I have a meltdown. I feel like I don't get any help from the husband. I feel like I am the only one doing things constantly around the house, while the husband comes home late (around 8:30), eats diner and places his behind on the couch to chilax.
I've tried to loosen up a bit. And there are days when I can forget about the dirty kitchen floor and the laundry and just live in a moment and enjoy life. But there are also other days when I feel like my To Do list is growing on me. Like I try to watch a movie at night, but the only things going through my mind is that I have to pack lunches, clean-up the house, wash this, wash that, and so on...How you find balance in life, in motherhood??? That is the big question and I can't find the answer to it just yet.
I go through stages. Few weeks I am fine and think of myself as a super woman for going to work early, getting groceries, making diner while trying to entertain a very active toddler who just needs to see what mama is cooking otherwise she'll through a tantrum, feeding the active toddler diner, feeding the husband diner, play/chase the toddler, change the toddler into pjs, brush teeth (in our case one tooth), wash bottles, pack lunches for the next day, sometimes do laundry, pick up toys around the house, and finally sit down on the couch with a cup of tea. ***Such a run on sentence, but whatever***
After a few weeks of thinking I can handle it all, I have a meltdown. I feel like I don't get any help from the husband. I feel like I am the only one doing things constantly around the house, while the husband comes home late (around 8:30), eats diner and places his behind on the couch to chilax.
I've tried to loosen up a bit. And there are days when I can forget about the dirty kitchen floor and the laundry and just live in a moment and enjoy life. But there are also other days when I feel like my To Do list is growing on me. Like I try to watch a movie at night, but the only things going through my mind is that I have to pack lunches, clean-up the house, wash this, wash that, and so on...How you find balance in life, in motherhood??? That is the big question and I can't find the answer to it just yet.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Slacking Yet Again
I don't even know where to start. The date of my last post was 12/14/10. That is more then two months ago. Seriously, how come I find time to read the blogs that I follow but never write in my own blog? Am I lazy? Don't have enough time? Afraid to commit to write at least once a week? Having my train of thoughts disapper once I log in to blogger? Yes, yes, and yet again yes!
- I've started a new job. The last few weeks at my old jobs were pretty hectic, plus it didn't help that I was constantly arguing with myself if I made a right decision to leave. Apparently, I did. All of my co-workers...pause...just got interrupted by one of my colleagues. Anyways, back to the old job. My deparment will be laid of as of April 8 and only two people will be left. They told me they wanted to keep me if I changed my mind and stayed but who knows for how long? So, I think it was a right decision after all.
- Miss A is 15 months! Crazy! Everytime I look at her, I can't believe she is already such a big girl. She makes my world go around. I don't think there are words to explain my feelings for her. I love to look at her when she grasps new things, when she plays, when she babbles, when she sees puppies/playground/grandfather.
She is definitely a character with her own personality. She can smile at us and probably easily get anything she wants :) J/K. But, her daddy sure loves when she giggles and laughs. He can't keep his face straight :) Love watching them play together.
- Miss A stilld doesn't have teeth. I am worried...and have been worried for quite some time.I hate when other mothers always tend to ask about her teeth and if we've seen any in her mouth. I hate when they ask "what is the doctor saying". I hate how they put even more pressure and stress on me. Her pediatrician recommended we wait a few more months and if she'lls till won't have any teeth, then we'll call the dentist. I am hoping and praying we'll see some pearly whites pretty soon.
- Miss A is still at home with my Mom. We are lucky she gets to spend time at home and not get sick as much as the other kids do in daycare. Although, at this point, the husband and I agree that she needs to learn to play with other kids. We've started looking for a daycare and only liked one out of 5-6 that we've seen. Of course, it has to be the most expensive one.
- Miss A walks and runs around the house. She loves to help with unloading grocery bags and putting stuff in a fridge. She loves to watch me vacuum. Just wait girl, you might be doing it yourself pretty soon :) She recently started playing more and more by herself with her toys. It definitely gives us some free minutes to check emails or have lunch.
- She doesn't talk yet but babbles all the time now. However, she understand everything we tell her. Such a smart cookie :)
- And lastly, here are her stats from the 15 month appointment:
Weight - 22.6 lbs (a little less then 50%)
Height - 32 inch (almost 90%)
P.S. We are still co-sleeping. Don't judge, but this way we at least get some sleep and can easily hand her a pacifier when she cries for it. Yesterday, we had a new addition in our bed. She brought her doll with her to sleep. I accidentally put my elbow on the doll at night, while looking for a pacifier, and she said "I love you, kiss, kiss (sounds). I love you!" I am not so sure about this doll being in our bed, but maybe I'll take the batteries out and we'll get some decent sleep.
- I've started a new job. The last few weeks at my old jobs were pretty hectic, plus it didn't help that I was constantly arguing with myself if I made a right decision to leave. Apparently, I did. All of my co-workers...pause...just got interrupted by one of my colleagues. Anyways, back to the old job. My deparment will be laid of as of April 8 and only two people will be left. They told me they wanted to keep me if I changed my mind and stayed but who knows for how long? So, I think it was a right decision after all.
- Miss A is 15 months! Crazy! Everytime I look at her, I can't believe she is already such a big girl. She makes my world go around. I don't think there are words to explain my feelings for her. I love to look at her when she grasps new things, when she plays, when she babbles, when she sees puppies/playground/grandfather.
She is definitely a character with her own personality. She can smile at us and probably easily get anything she wants :) J/K. But, her daddy sure loves when she giggles and laughs. He can't keep his face straight :) Love watching them play together.
- Miss A stilld doesn't have teeth. I am worried...and have been worried for quite some time.I hate when other mothers always tend to ask about her teeth and if we've seen any in her mouth. I hate when they ask "what is the doctor saying". I hate how they put even more pressure and stress on me. Her pediatrician recommended we wait a few more months and if she'lls till won't have any teeth, then we'll call the dentist. I am hoping and praying we'll see some pearly whites pretty soon.
- Miss A is still at home with my Mom. We are lucky she gets to spend time at home and not get sick as much as the other kids do in daycare. Although, at this point, the husband and I agree that she needs to learn to play with other kids. We've started looking for a daycare and only liked one out of 5-6 that we've seen. Of course, it has to be the most expensive one.
- Miss A walks and runs around the house. She loves to help with unloading grocery bags and putting stuff in a fridge. She loves to watch me vacuum. Just wait girl, you might be doing it yourself pretty soon :) She recently started playing more and more by herself with her toys. It definitely gives us some free minutes to check emails or have lunch.
- She doesn't talk yet but babbles all the time now. However, she understand everything we tell her. Such a smart cookie :)
- And lastly, here are her stats from the 15 month appointment:
Weight - 22.6 lbs (a little less then 50%)
Height - 32 inch (almost 90%)
P.S. We are still co-sleeping. Don't judge, but this way we at least get some sleep and can easily hand her a pacifier when she cries for it. Yesterday, we had a new addition in our bed. She brought her doll with her to sleep. I accidentally put my elbow on the doll at night, while looking for a pacifier, and she said "I love you, kiss, kiss (sounds). I love you!" I am not so sure about this doll being in our bed, but maybe I'll take the batteries out and we'll get some decent sleep.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
My Kid is Smart
If I say so myself :) It is sure OK to compliment your child!
But seriously, she's been showing off her intelligence at this early age :)
- She walks around a house and points at things she wants (yelles if you don't give it to her, laughs and giggles if you pick up what she was pointing at)
- She knows that remote control turns on/off the TV and has been bringing to us to turn her cartoons on. She loves watching the Baby Einstein DVDs, especiialy anything that has to do with animals.
- She knows that cell phone is for talking. She picks up her play phone or my Iphone and brings it to her ear to check if anyone is there.
- She points at all the family members when we say their name. I think everyone feels special when she is doing it!
- She points at elephant, girrafe, tiger, yogurt, balloons, and puppy in her book.
- She loves putting her socks on, even if she can't really do it, she still tries really hard. Yesterday, she got half of the sock on one of her foot and just started laughing.
- After we are done changing her, she picks up her dirty diaper (don't worry I close it so it is not messy at all and don't give it to her if she did #2) and walks to the garbage can and throws it away. Now if only she could change her own diaper :)Need to work on that....j/k.
- She can toast. This new trick was shown to her yesterday at diner. DH and I had a glass of wine and toasted her sippy cup. She loved it and made us do it over and over and over again.
I love watching her learn new things. It is amazing to see the excitement in her eyes when she sees new things. I feel so proud of her already and it is only a beginning!
But seriously, she's been showing off her intelligence at this early age :)
- She walks around a house and points at things she wants (yelles if you don't give it to her, laughs and giggles if you pick up what she was pointing at)
- She knows that remote control turns on/off the TV and has been bringing to us to turn her cartoons on. She loves watching the Baby Einstein DVDs, especiialy anything that has to do with animals.
- She knows that cell phone is for talking. She picks up her play phone or my Iphone and brings it to her ear to check if anyone is there.
- She points at all the family members when we say their name. I think everyone feels special when she is doing it!
- She points at elephant, girrafe, tiger, yogurt, balloons, and puppy in her book.
- She loves putting her socks on, even if she can't really do it, she still tries really hard. Yesterday, she got half of the sock on one of her foot and just started laughing.
- After we are done changing her, she picks up her dirty diaper (don't worry I close it so it is not messy at all and don't give it to her if she did #2) and walks to the garbage can and throws it away. Now if only she could change her own diaper :)Need to work on that....j/k.
- She can toast. This new trick was shown to her yesterday at diner. DH and I had a glass of wine and toasted her sippy cup. She loved it and made us do it over and over and over again.
I love watching her learn new things. It is amazing to see the excitement in her eyes when she sees new things. I feel so proud of her already and it is only a beginning!
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
My baby is 1!
I know I haven't been blogging for a while but I just have to take a ten minute break from work and blog about a huge milestone in my baby girl's life.
Ariela turned one yesterday. Big One! I can hardly believe it and honestly I am still in denial. I look at her and I can't believe that she's been in our lives for a whole year (or is it just a year?). I can't believe a year ago we brought our little baby home and started our new life as a family of three. What a year it has been? It was full of laughter, joy, tears, surprises, worry, fear, and just pure love.
We brought home a tiny little baby who needed us, who relied on us, and trusted us to take care of her.
She was hungry - we gave her food
She cried - we comforted her
She cried some more - we changed her diapers, massaged her stomach to relieve her of the stomach pain
She woke up at night - we kept her company
She smiled - we yelled "omg, she just smiled at me!"
She laughed - we laughed right with her, and sometimes at her :)
She played with her toys - we got down on the floor and played with her
Months went by and out little baby is turning into a toddler with her own personality and a little attitude :)
She communicates/screams if she wants something - she laughs if we get what she wants
She loves feeding herself with a spoon - she grabs the spoon and brings it to her mouth sideways. Some food actually makes it inside her mouth, but majority is on the floor. Yet, she is so proud of her new skills that she gives the spoon right back to me to fill it up with some more food.
She loves attention - we can't leave her alone to play. We need to be right there with her.
She loves to walk - sometimes still holding my hand, but the majority of the time she walks independentaly (note started walking on November 3rd at 11.5 months).
She loves playing with her socks and shoes - I think she has more shoes then me at this point. She constantly tries to put them on, even if she already has a pair on her.
She tried sweets for the first time yesterday - got a piece of the cake to try and loved it. Her reaction was priceless. There was a 10 second pause after she got a bite of the cake and then dived in with her face into the cake!
She still doesn't have teeth - getting a little worried, but the doc said assured me it is normal and we should see the first one by 15 month the latest.
She is a joy to be around with - she puts a smile on our faces, she makes us laugh, she makes us giggle like little kids, she makes us feel younger, and finally she makes us experience love that we never knew existed.
I didn't get to say a toast yesterday when family came over (I did wisper it to her when she was falling asleep). So here it goes:
Dear A,
Thank you for being a part of my life! Thank you for being you! Thank you for totally changing my life and making it so much better! Thank you for all the fun times the last year has brought (let's just have less of the sleepless nights)!
I wish you health and happiness. I hope you'll get to accomplish everything you want in your life (we'll help you at that, I promise!). I hope you'll know the meaning of friendship and will have honest and true people surrounding you. I hope you and I will have a close relationship in the years to come. I can list so much more things I am hoping for but I'll stop right here.
There are no words to explain my love to you. I think I rely on you as much as you rely on me nowdays. Here is to lots of more year of fun, joy, tears, milestones, and love! Cheers!
You'll always be my baby girl!
With lots of love,
Mom
Ariela turned one yesterday. Big One! I can hardly believe it and honestly I am still in denial. I look at her and I can't believe that she's been in our lives for a whole year (or is it just a year?). I can't believe a year ago we brought our little baby home and started our new life as a family of three. What a year it has been? It was full of laughter, joy, tears, surprises, worry, fear, and just pure love.
We brought home a tiny little baby who needed us, who relied on us, and trusted us to take care of her.
She was hungry - we gave her food
She cried - we comforted her
She cried some more - we changed her diapers, massaged her stomach to relieve her of the stomach pain
She woke up at night - we kept her company
She smiled - we yelled "omg, she just smiled at me!"
She laughed - we laughed right with her, and sometimes at her :)
She played with her toys - we got down on the floor and played with her
Months went by and out little baby is turning into a toddler with her own personality and a little attitude :)
She communicates/screams if she wants something - she laughs if we get what she wants
She loves feeding herself with a spoon - she grabs the spoon and brings it to her mouth sideways. Some food actually makes it inside her mouth, but majority is on the floor. Yet, she is so proud of her new skills that she gives the spoon right back to me to fill it up with some more food.
She loves attention - we can't leave her alone to play. We need to be right there with her.
She loves to walk - sometimes still holding my hand, but the majority of the time she walks independentaly (note started walking on November 3rd at 11.5 months).
She loves playing with her socks and shoes - I think she has more shoes then me at this point. She constantly tries to put them on, even if she already has a pair on her.
She tried sweets for the first time yesterday - got a piece of the cake to try and loved it. Her reaction was priceless. There was a 10 second pause after she got a bite of the cake and then dived in with her face into the cake!
She still doesn't have teeth - getting a little worried, but the doc said assured me it is normal and we should see the first one by 15 month the latest.
She is a joy to be around with - she puts a smile on our faces, she makes us laugh, she makes us giggle like little kids, she makes us feel younger, and finally she makes us experience love that we never knew existed.
I didn't get to say a toast yesterday when family came over (I did wisper it to her when she was falling asleep). So here it goes:
Dear A,
Thank you for being a part of my life! Thank you for being you! Thank you for totally changing my life and making it so much better! Thank you for all the fun times the last year has brought (let's just have less of the sleepless nights)!
I wish you health and happiness. I hope you'll get to accomplish everything you want in your life (we'll help you at that, I promise!). I hope you'll know the meaning of friendship and will have honest and true people surrounding you. I hope you and I will have a close relationship in the years to come. I can list so much more things I am hoping for but I'll stop right here.
There are no words to explain my love to you. I think I rely on you as much as you rely on me nowdays. Here is to lots of more year of fun, joy, tears, milestones, and love! Cheers!
You'll always be my baby girl!
With lots of love,
Mom
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